I've found inspiration to start writing again. This time however, my inspiration comes from my love for God. For quite a while now, I've been wanting to begin blogging again, but I couldn't find the exact meaning my blog would hold and what I would be calling it. Tonight as I was laying in bed and listening to worship music, How He Loves came on, and in a beautiful instant I knew not only what the name of this blog would be, but essentially what its purpose would be. The purpose of this new blog is really to help me get my own thoughts down and reflect back on in the hopes of strengthening and furthering my relationship with God. Getting my thoughts down helps me to make sense of all of them fluttering about in my mind. However, if this blog speaks out to others in the process of that and makes a difference in others' lives, that would be truly incredible. I titled this blog How He Loves not just because of the incredible song, but because over time I hope to grow more in my relationship with Him and hope to better understand the ways in which He shows us His love and mercy.
If you asked someone close to me if I've lost anything I desperately loved recently, every one of them would say I've lost multiple things in the past few years. Not just things, but things that meant the world to me. This is not to promote sympathy or pity, but rather show you exactly where I am in my life right now. I have lost so much that I myself am literally lost down here on this earth. I have no idea where my life is going or what meaning my life holds.
That being said, I know that God has intentionally taken all these things away from me and stripped me from the earthly things I held on to for so long. He has literally left me in a darkness that holds no light but the light that He himself illuminates. He has left me with no sense of direction, forcing me to drop everything and follow Him. He is the light. He is the way. Just like a light house in a troubling storm, He is the only light shining for miles, and it's shining so that we can be guided by it.
Now I have always strived to follow God. Ever since I asked him to be my Lord and Savior ten years ago, I've always followed Him. That being said, I didn't SOLELY follow Him. I had so many other things in my life that I put before Him and felt were more important than Him. I knew my relationship with Him was important, but I didn't know that it should be the main focus of my life. Colossians 3:2 says, "Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth." For me, it took God himself to take away everything he had granted me for my eyes to see that He was all that mattered.
Because I put my hopes into earthly things and earthly relationships for so many years, there is almost a void left in me from it all being taken away. Because I put so much of my hopes into these things for so long, it makes the void that much bigger. However, I know that over time God will be able to fill that void in my heart that I am responsible for making. The Bible says in Colossians 1:17 "And He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." God is BEFORE everything we put our time and energy into on this earth. Notice how the verse says ALL things. All our hopes and dreams we want to come true, He is before it all. Not just certain aspects of our lives that we choose to put Him before.Also, the verse says He is what holds us together. Not these earthly things we love.
It is only when we put God before absolutely everything in our life that we will truly be at peace. When you are told to surrender your life to Christ, that means everything. In the end, all the earthly things God gives us will eventually fail us. Maybe not immediately, but even after countless years, it will all fail us. However, God's love is unfailing. It is the only thing that will never leave nor fail us. If His love is the only thing that will never fail us, shouldn't that makes us want to put our relationship with Him above and before all things? The only way we will find true happiness in this life is by putting Him first.
